Minyao Laogong Yuzhen
Keng n Zhen pHotO buCkeT
Yuzhen
Cun & Wei
Zhen Xing
Meiyi
Weizhen
Sometimes when you are very happy ... its because you encounter someone who is very good to you and you have a very blessed or a feeling of happiness or like what we always say "Xin Fu". As for me... i hope i can be "Xin Fu" for everyday or even for a day i am very happy liao ... but... i think that's not gonna happen for my case. Well... as for the reason... it is due to my physical outlook i supposed, who in the hell would like that huh? ....
Probably, some of you may say that: " Girl nowadays doesn't go for looks liao ... you see most of the chio girls' boyfriend also not very good looking." I've got something to say here... i think i have already told some of you liao, that is: "Hello... The real thing is that, girls only will try to understand you when you have a good physical outlook ya ?" I mean, come'on lah people... especially for guys, if you are not good looking or in anyway 'shun yan' to the girl hor... how could you expect her to understand you more and perhaps give you a chance leh ? ... And the cruel thing is that, even if they do understand you further, when you really have the courage or anything to boost you, telling the girl you like her, the answer will be most likely "no" why? ... Here's the solution, (I'm truly sorry for any girls to read this but... it has absolutely no intention of offending anyone. If you do... my apologise)
1) the girl maybe attached and has no intention of breaking up with old to get new;
2) the girl feel that you are not good enough to meet their standards;
3) even though the girl told you that she can accept anyone if she feels right, but the natural fact is that she feels that you are not up to her standard or she just doesn't like you in anyway.
4) I think this is the most hurting one; she hates you... and feels that: "Why are you here in this world ?".
From the above point i've stated... some i have personally experience them. Well, but actually... i didn't really ask a girl personally before... but... that's all the possible outcome if i were to ask for my case at least... i am quite sure that people like me feels the same way.
Hmm... remember something. I also have heard people telling me that: "even your physical is not outstanding, but you still have you strong points... like your studies". Hahahaa.... what a joke... ("no offence to the person whom told me this, if you remembered who you are") Ya... in fact, when i was in sec 4, i thought it was like that. What the truth is, NO... N , O NO! How can your result let someone be touched by you? ... come'on... hiaZ.... Why am i just pointing fingers at the girls and not the boys? .... erm... i am not bias ... the reason is that... a girl is more unlikely to go and ask a guy to steady compared a guy asking a girl... right ?... agree ?... and if a girl really asked a guy, there would be a little stupid if the guy rejects right? ... unless there is a very strong and powerful reason to backup... understood ?... -_-'
I guessed by now... you folks reading this would feel offended right ?... but, i can't care much liao ... i feel that there is a need for me to write out what am i thinking... so ... sorry for those who felt offended. Sometimes i feel that i am that annoying in such a way that people would not be happy with me and not even tell me and then go home and built up the hatred in themselves and suddenly brust it out of the blue and poor me... has to bear the consequences for that... without a reason... personally, i felt that if you are not happy with me... you could have just spoke to me in anyway also can and try to resolve the problems you had with me and let's just live happier for that particular moment... but i just can't understand why other's just couldn't do or even understand this simpler logic ? ... is it that difficult to understand or its just that they just wanted to break ties with me earlier? ... well if i'd know... i would not be in such a state now... People also tend to have secrets within ... although they say ... you are with us... but, there will be something that should have been told to you but sad to say... have not... So i found that people tends to have secrets within and it sometimes made me very disappointed. I am not saying that people who knows me have to tell me all your secrets. I am just trying to say that if you were to say something that i do not know, you should have told me the whole thing. Otherwise, i think you shouldn't had even let me hear part of that... get what i mean ? ... In short: " if you dun wish to let me know something... you had better dun let me know that such thing actually exist, and if i know bits of the things that i didn't know... you should tell me...".
There was once i remember... i was being demoted or what till that i couldn't even asked what had happened or where did some others had gone to do some of the activties. That time when i asked, the reply i got was: " why you want to know? " ... LOST, was the word i think is the best one to describe that kind of feeling... you feel so... erm...behind ... or something... They were the ones who said ' what are friends for..." and on the other hands, the "demolish it" contredicting right? ... or should i say ironic ? you decide. When you have a very curious and innocent feeling when asking somebody things and they just give you that reply. Its somehow to me, a declaration of breaking or margine something between you and them...
Haha... suddenly thought of something really funny... and i think this is the cause that actually made out some of the points i've stated above... hahaha... Here it goes, i think quite a lot of people know it liao... but i just not gonna pin point at somebody. There was a quite important decision for me to make at that time, and in the begining i didn't really gave much thought over that made it. And after that, i just was joking and not really bother about what i say to people that: " be sure of what you are choosing". Then after the result was out, i had this sudden thought of the importance of the decision. So by the time, i really gave a very deep thought over it and finally i decide to switch the choice i've made and granted. Then i went to ask for comments from some friends over the switch that i intended to make... At that moment... its was still fine... and after i'd my dinner... ,for your folks info, it was on the same day, my friends just turn their back on me and then say that i was not being respectful for if i do the switch ... hahaha.... this part was funny for me... hahaha.... that day i didn't really realised the anger people had on me...( i think some of you may have some question marks ???? ... read on) and the next day... i meet them... and they just ignore me even when i talk to them... for my thinking... "Alright lor... nvm". By then i thought it would be only in among ourselves... but surprisingly, the next day... almost the whole world knows about it... and i really dunno what in the blue hell were they not happy for. Then after that... we do the usual stuffs of going for breaks together... for the1 day after the grugdes, i am totally ignored throughout the whole meal time... then i thought...maybe i should not be in the group lor... and accompany with this thought came another think of assumption, which is that the others in the group may feel that i am important and might follow me for breaks and trying to be with me ? ... FAT HOPE!!! would be a very good phrase to reply me... like i have written in the previous post, i've been alone for almost all the breaks after some thing which i dun really know happened... After sometime, i asked reluctantly what happened and why all my friends had followed the ones that are not happy with me.
Be ready this is real funny... They say that those guys who was not happy with me is that they are not happy that i've made a switch... LOL....real loud!!! the switch decides my fate and not the blue hell would affect them in anyway... so ? ... funny ?... i guessed so... :) LMAO!!! So after this... really no one had come to me or even trying to find me and have a good chat or a meal with me during the breaks. All had followed them... and that gives me a feeling of i am the one who is wrong and should be alone ... "Huo Gai!" And i am so worked up and i confronted those who doesn't support me when i actually had high expectation that they would. They are the ones who are real important friends i consider.... but they had largely disappointed me... Helped them when they needed... but... hiaZ... ( REally no offence... just writing) then i feel so lonely in school or so... whatever... Well ... who says good results would bring faith? ... So after that so-called incident, friends ties with the first group of friends known in poly were weaken till so..... WEAK.... dun talk as usual... and i dun really know what's going on with them nowadays... that was really down sukup down in life. But... the bright side of it is that ... i've gone over it... i've fought this battle... alone... and although i have lost... i still survive... good news arh ?... well... that's nothing to me... what gonez is gonez... really sad that friends didn't make it with me... dunno whether my effort made in the first round has been thrashed or what... real davastating.
So now i just want to live my life a usual ... dun wish to have something similar to happen again... and i am not afraid to die... die so what? ... can even throw away what's bothering you all the time... no one actually cares what... right... All of you always says... i got something that is positive to what i've always said, its just that i didn't realised it or its yet to come... but what's the point if it was like this... what i wanted is what i feel and see now... and what's coming is not predictable and its always the bad side for me ... so no point wait for something that is very unlikely to be comeing true of ? ... that just made a fool out of myself in the end. say what ever you all want bah... after reading... comment this post would do a better job than putting them in the tag board... I've written so long liaoZ... dun wish to carry on ... CiaoZ.
P.S Dun feel offended for anything that i've wrote that makes you mad...its just writties... if you really do ... i'm truly sorry for that.... SOrry!...
Yao~
Sometimes when you are very happy ... its because you encounter someone who is very good to you and you have a very blessed or a feeling of happiness or like what we always say "Xin Fu". As for me... i hope i can be "Xin Fu" for everyday or even for a day i am very happy liao ... but... i think that's not gonna happen for my case. Well... as for the reason... it is due to my physical outlook i supposed, who in the hell would like that huh? ....
Probably, some of you may say that: " Girl nowadays doesn't go for looks liao ... you see most of the chio girls' boyfriend also not very good looking." I've got something to say here... i think i have already told some of you liao, that is: "Hello... The real thing is that, girls only will try to understand you when you have a good physical outlook ya ?" I mean, come'on lah people... especially for guys, if you are not good looking or in anyway 'shun yan' to the girl hor... how could you expect her to understand you more and perhaps give you a chance leh ? ... And the cruel thing is that, even if they do understand you further, when you really have the courage or anything to boost you, telling the girl you like her, the answer will be most likely "no" why? ... Here's the solution, (I'm truly sorry for any girls to read this but... it has absolutely no intention of offending anyone. If you do... my apologise)
1) the girl maybe attached and has no intention of breaking up with old to get new;
2) the girl feel that you are not good enough to meet their standards;
3) even though the girl told you that she can accept anyone if she feels right, but the natural fact is that she feels that you are not up to her standard or she just doesn't like you in anyway.
4) I think this is the most hurting one; she hates you... and feels that: "Why are you here in this world ?".
From the above point i've stated... some i have personally experience them. Well, but actually... i didn't really ask a girl personally before... but... that's all the possible outcome if i were to ask for my case at least... i am quite sure that people like me feels the same way.
Hmm... remember something. I also have heard people telling me that: "even your physical is not outstanding, but you still have you strong points... like your studies". Hahahaa.... what a joke... ("no offence to the person whom told me this, if you remembered who you are") Ya... in fact, when i was in sec 4, i thought it was like that. What the truth is, NO... N , O NO! How can your result let someone be touched by you? ... come'on... hiaZ.... Why am i just pointing fingers at the girls and not the boys? .... erm... i am not bias ... the reason is that... a girl is more unlikely to go and ask a guy to steady compared a guy asking a girl... right ?... agree ?... and if a girl really asked a guy, there would be a little stupid if the guy rejects right? ... unless there is a very strong and powerful reason to backup... understood ?... -_-'
I guessed by now... you folks reading this would feel offended right ?... but, i can't care much liao ... i feel that there is a need for me to write out what am i thinking... so ... sorry for those who felt offended. Sometimes i feel that i am that annoying in such a way that people would not be happy with me and not even tell me and then go home and built up the hatred in themselves and suddenly brust it out of the blue and poor me... has to bear the consequences for that... without a reason... personally, i felt that if you are not happy with me... you could have just spoke to me in anyway also can and try to resolve the problems you had with me and let's just live happier for that particular moment... but i just can't understand why other's just couldn't do or even understand this simpler logic ? ... is it that difficult to understand or its just that they just wanted to break ties with me earlier? ... well if i'd know... i would not be in such a state now... People also tend to have secrets within ... although they say ... you are with us... but, there will be something that should have been told to you but sad to say... have not... So i found that people tends to have secrets within and it sometimes made me very disappointed. I am not saying that people who knows me have to tell me all your secrets. I am just trying to say that if you were to say something that i do not know, you should have told me the whole thing. Otherwise, i think you shouldn't had even let me hear part of that... get what i mean ? ... In short: " if you dun wish to let me know something... you had better dun let me know that such thing actually exist, and if i know bits of the things that i didn't know... you should tell me...".
There was once i remember... i was being demoted or what till that i couldn't even asked what had happened or where did some others had gone to do some of the activties. That time when i asked, the reply i got was: " why you want to know? " ... LOST, was the word i think is the best one to describe that kind of feeling... you feel so... erm...behind ... or something... They were the ones who said ' what are friends for..." and on the other hands, the "demolish it" contredicting right? ... or should i say ironic ? you decide. When you have a very curious and innocent feeling when asking somebody things and they just give you that reply. Its somehow to me, a declaration of breaking or margine something between you and them...
Haha... suddenly thought of something really funny... and i think this is the cause that actually made out some of the points i've stated above... hahaha... Here it goes, i think quite a lot of people know it liao... but i just not gonna pin point at somebody. There was a quite important decision for me to make at that time, and in the begining i didn't really gave much thought over that made it. And after that, i just was joking and not really bother about what i say to people that: " be sure of what you are choosing". Then after the result was out, i had this sudden thought of the importance of the decision. So by the time, i really gave a very deep thought over it and finally i decide to switch the choice i've made and granted. Then i went to ask for comments from some friends over the switch that i intended to make... At that moment... its was still fine... and after i'd my dinner... ,for your folks info, it was on the same day, my friends just turn their back on me and then say that i was not being respectful for if i do the switch ... hahaha.... this part was funny for me... hahaha.... that day i didn't really realised the anger people had on me...( i think some of you may have some question marks ???? ... read on) and the next day... i meet them... and they just ignore me even when i talk to them... for my thinking... "Alright lor... nvm". By then i thought it would be only in among ourselves... but surprisingly, the next day... almost the whole world knows about it... and i really dunno what in the blue hell were they not happy for. Then after that... we do the usual stuffs of going for breaks together... for the1 day after the grugdes, i am totally ignored throughout the whole meal time... then i thought...maybe i should not be in the group lor... and accompany with this thought came another think of assumption, which is that the others in the group may feel that i am important and might follow me for breaks and trying to be with me ? ... FAT HOPE!!! would be a very good phrase to reply me... like i have written in the previous post, i've been alone for almost all the breaks after some thing which i dun really know happened... After sometime, i asked reluctantly what happened and why all my friends had followed the ones that are not happy with me.
Be ready this is real funny... They say that those guys who was not happy with me is that they are not happy that i've made a switch... LOL....real loud!!! the switch decides my fate and not the blue hell would affect them in anyway... so ? ... funny ?... i guessed so... :) LMAO!!! So after this... really no one had come to me or even trying to find me and have a good chat or a meal with me during the breaks. All had followed them... and that gives me a feeling of i am the one who is wrong and should be alone ... "Huo Gai!" And i am so worked up and i confronted those who doesn't support me when i actually had high expectation that they would. They are the ones who are real important friends i consider.... but they had largely disappointed me... Helped them when they needed... but... hiaZ... ( REally no offence... just writing) then i feel so lonely in school or so... whatever... Well ... who says good results would bring faith? ... So after that so-called incident, friends ties with the first group of friends known in poly were weaken till so..... WEAK.... dun talk as usual... and i dun really know what's going on with them nowadays... that was really down sukup down in life. But... the bright side of it is that ... i've gone over it... i've fought this battle... alone... and although i have lost... i still survive... good news arh ?... well... that's nothing to me... what gonez is gonez... really sad that friends didn't make it with me... dunno whether my effort made in the first round has been thrashed or what... real davastating.
So now i just want to live my life a usual ... dun wish to have something similar to happen again... and i am not afraid to die... die so what? ... can even throw away what's bothering you all the time... no one actually cares what... right... All of you always says... i got something that is positive to what i've always said, its just that i didn't realised it or its yet to come... but what's the point if it was like this... what i wanted is what i feel and see now... and what's coming is not predictable and its always the bad side for me ... so no point wait for something that is very unlikely to be comeing true of ? ... that just made a fool out of myself in the end. say what ever you all want bah... after reading... comment this post would do a better job than putting them in the tag board... I've written so long liaoZ... dun wish to carry on ... CiaoZ.
P.S Dun feel offended for anything that i've wrote that makes you mad...its just writties... if you really do ... i'm truly sorry for that.... SOrry!...
Yao~