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What in the blue hell have i done wrong ?... Just as i started to have a little bit of hope in my life... the lightning just strucks without any signal... there might be some and i just didn't care about it... even if it is so... was it my fault ?....
Why does such a thing actually happens to me ? ... as what my title of this blog is ... "Bad Luck in Everything" !!!!!!! .... i couldn't think of anything in my life that i have done that makes me feels that luck was by my side... no !... no at all... all the luck only happens to the friends around me... i have seen them having to life with the lady luck alongside... No...i won't blame, even if i do, what can i do to change ? ... nothing ... so i do not want to...
When i thought that my life was getting a little brighter with all the friends that i had, someone just ran towards the spark of light and grab it... now... what i could see was just darkness... ya... pure darkness... I feel that i am being defeated by the reality of life... it has always been cruel to me... and till now... it hasn't change at all... maybe i just accidently offended it somehow and it a payback time for me...
Maybe i should just resigned to life as its quite meaningless to be all th while... but i had to really consider my kins that would be sad if i leave... So... the moment where i had no kins at all... i think i can leave peacefully... there is absolutely nothing for me to live for...even now... what's my next stage of life gonna be ? ... going to Uni ? ... well... even if that's the case it hasn't change from my life now... still the same thing... what if i achieved what no others can ? ... no one is there to celebrate or share the joy with me ... why should i ?...
My friend said that i wasn't positive enough... and like i said to him : there wasn't any successful case for me to believe that i would succeed... i not those think skinned kind... i know my limits... i would be so sticky as in keep on following even that person already expressed the rejection to you... anyway ... its the respecting of her decisions too...
Others told me instead to leave it behind me, anyway i will be in NS soon... so concentrate what's comming to me... erm... ya... i guess i should be and only can be...
I just wanted to always ask this question ... why not give me a chance to prove myself that i can do the job well ? ... why decide for me so early ? ... give me chance to prove... if i can't then i would make my best committment to compromise what was required. What was wrong about me ?... Ya... i know... my physical... sad...there is a lot of people saying, its not about the looks but the personality... as what i have already explained why it is not true at all and not right at all in my previous few post...
Fasinating thing was that, i lost a battle that i wasn't even in it... tragic huh ? ... YEah... you damn right it is... go ahead to guess whatever you all like, and i am not gonna tell you who in the hell is happening.... Shit ... its pure shit... What have i done wrong ? ... what have I !!!.... I really doesn't have a clue...
k...
"pls pls.... let me go..."
Yao~
What in the blue hell have i done wrong ?... Just as i started to have a little bit of hope in my life... the lightning just strucks without any signal... there might be some and i just didn't care about it... even if it is so... was it my fault ?....
Why does such a thing actually happens to me ? ... as what my title of this blog is ... "Bad Luck in Everything" !!!!!!! .... i couldn't think of anything in my life that i have done that makes me feels that luck was by my side... no !... no at all... all the luck only happens to the friends around me... i have seen them having to life with the lady luck alongside... No...i won't blame, even if i do, what can i do to change ? ... nothing ... so i do not want to...
When i thought that my life was getting a little brighter with all the friends that i had, someone just ran towards the spark of light and grab it... now... what i could see was just darkness... ya... pure darkness... I feel that i am being defeated by the reality of life... it has always been cruel to me... and till now... it hasn't change at all... maybe i just accidently offended it somehow and it a payback time for me...
Maybe i should just resigned to life as its quite meaningless to be all th while... but i had to really consider my kins that would be sad if i leave... So... the moment where i had no kins at all... i think i can leave peacefully... there is absolutely nothing for me to live for...even now... what's my next stage of life gonna be ? ... going to Uni ? ... well... even if that's the case it hasn't change from my life now... still the same thing... what if i achieved what no others can ? ... no one is there to celebrate or share the joy with me ... why should i ?...
My friend said that i wasn't positive enough... and like i said to him : there wasn't any successful case for me to believe that i would succeed... i not those think skinned kind... i know my limits... i would be so sticky as in keep on following even that person already expressed the rejection to you... anyway ... its the respecting of her decisions too...
Others told me instead to leave it behind me, anyway i will be in NS soon... so concentrate what's comming to me... erm... ya... i guess i should be and only can be...
I just wanted to always ask this question ... why not give me a chance to prove myself that i can do the job well ? ... why decide for me so early ? ... give me chance to prove... if i can't then i would make my best committment to compromise what was required. What was wrong about me ?... Ya... i know... my physical... sad...there is a lot of people saying, its not about the looks but the personality... as what i have already explained why it is not true at all and not right at all in my previous few post...
Fasinating thing was that, i lost a battle that i wasn't even in it... tragic huh ? ... YEah... you damn right it is... go ahead to guess whatever you all like, and i am not gonna tell you who in the hell is happening.... Shit ... its pure shit... What have i done wrong ? ... what have I !!!.... I really doesn't have a clue...
k...
"pls pls.... let me go..."
Yao~