I am in such a mess now... Sad... I came from so high up and yet now i am falling almost to hell. Life now was such a struggle. Alone in the environment, couldn't really catch up. My brain just isn't working like it used to. I always had this feeling that if it was in the past, i could well have got it right !
Perhaps i should move this kind of thought at the back of my mind. The good feeling is not with me anymore. suddenly i have a feeling of how bay and co feels during poly time. Maybe its the way that i taught and guided them that helped me to learn in the long run. The confidence is gone... everything to be more precise.
Dunno what to do now, i dunwan to be in the situtation i am foreseeing myself to be in. I am LOST.
I am in such a mess now... Sad... I came from so high up and yet now i am falling almost to hell. Life now was such a struggle. Alone in the environment, couldn't really catch up. My brain just isn't working like it used to. I always had this feeling that if it was in the past, i could well have got it right !
Perhaps i should move this kind of thought at the back of my mind. The good feeling is not with me anymore. suddenly i have a feeling of how bay and co feels during poly time. Maybe its the way that i taught and guided them that helped me to learn in the long run. The confidence is gone... everything to be more precise.
Dunno what to do now, i dunwan to be in the situtation i am foreseeing myself to be in. I am LOST.